Tuesday, May 30, 2006

clearance

Back to work. I had a doctor's appt. today. My doctor cleared me to begin working again starting on Monday. At first I will be restricted to working from home. He said that I will need to self regulate my time spent working. He said that I should work a little bit at first and then gradually increase my time. I think that I will be able to put in a couple of hours a day to start. we'll see....

He did say that the longer I am away from work that the harder it will be for me to get back into it. I really do not like not working. I feel that I am getting so far behind.....

alive and kicking....

recovery

I decided that I am going to use my blog to re-train my brain and get back into typing shape. Everyday I plan on typing at least one post to excercise my brain. You would not believe how hard it is to type right now. I have to really focus and block out all external noise in order to get my fingers to type the words that are coming from my mind. I see the words in my head,but my fingers are not responding as they should. After I type for just a few minutes, I get really tired. I feel exhausted. It feels like I just ran down the street. I guess I just need to keep doing these brain push-ups to get back into shape.

It has been a whirlwind lately. I do not remember what happened when I had the stroke. I do not remember the first several days of being in the hospital. I just remember seeing faces of the people that came to visit me. I remember seeing my wife Desiree - crying at my bed side. I remember, my Mom, Dad and Grandparent being there. I remember seing my Grandfather with tears in his eyes. I remember talking to my grandmother and telling her about one of the times we went camping and fishing when I was a child.

When they had me on the drugs for the pain that I was having in my head - I saw a lot of things.....One was what I believe was the Angel of death. It/he was coming through the TV screen. It/he had an outstretched hand and was reaching for me. I remember lifting up my arm and trying to grab the hand. It was disturbing and unsettling.

There was also the fish that I saw floating above my head. Thy looked like rainbow colored coy fish. I could reach up and touch them and the water would ripple at my touch. I guess I was a little out of my mind at the time.

I apologize if I misspelled words or my grammar and punctuation are not correct. At this point I am just glad that I can type....

Getting better everyday......

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Stroke

On May18th I suffered a stoke to the right side of my brain. I spent the week in the hospital where they conducted countless tests. The doctors could not find a reason for me having a stroke. they did say that in 20% of all stroke cases, the cause is never known. I wish I could go into more detail, but it is very difficult to type. I have to really focus just to get my hands to hit the right keys. I used to be able to type approx. 120wpm, now I have a hard time typing a couple of sentences. But, I am getting a little faster every day. I think that with more practice and time, I will be able to light up the keboard again.

I am just happy to be home and be around my family.

I do want to thank all my friends and family for all the prayers and well-wishes during this ordeal.

All is well

-daniel